Sunday, January 30, 2011

winter day in malaysia

31 Jan 2010, 1.26am

a cold n freezing day in Malaysia
Sky keeps raining from early morning till now
And never stop at all
Make me feel so cold and hiding myself on my bed
Cold weather is good and enjoyable
I love it together with the rain
Raining is my best friend
I love raining

Don’t know what happen to me
Maybe I’m over utilize my energy since my preparation for exam and vacation
Today I slept a lot
After back from market
I went back to my bed sweet bed
From 9am sleep till 6pm
Totally like the 21st century sleeping beauty
But I’m not beauty
I’m sleeping naughty
But now I still feel sleepy although I sleep a lot for today
More or less it also being influence by the weather
Cold weather and a nice sweet dream

Chinese New Year is coming to town very soon
And just left than one more week to go
But I still haven clean my room
Haven put on my Chinese New Year decoration on it
Wipe my window and change my bed sheet
Everything still not done yet
I’m so lazy
I’m going to start it before Chinese New Year eve

Yesterday went to cinema have a movie with my family
I feel so happy and at the same times family feel is with me
Long time never watch with them
So happy and hope it will get more in future

Cheer ah….
Be hardworking girl and clean my room
Wish myself a happy Chinese New Year and a clean room to sleep
What a funny wish that I’ve made for my own

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

diary of January

26 Jan 2011, 0235am

Two more weeks to go
Chinese New Year will be coming to town
During Chinese New Year everyone will go back to hometown and celebrate with their family
To me, I don’t have any out station hometown
KL is my hometown

When I was young and kid I love Chinese New Year
But once I grown up I feel bored with it
If whole day didn’t get any single invitation for outing
Beside can get red packet from relatives
It also quite a good day or period where I can have a rest at home as well
Watching television program, eating New Year biscuit made by mummy, online then sleeps

A new year is coming soon
Then what is my fate and luck for this year
Good or bad
Should I rely on it? But I’ll just read and go
My wish for every year is the same
Wish my family member stay healthy and happy always
As well as people around me also must stay happy

One more thing I can’t forget that’s is ask god take care with my studies as well
I know I’m a little greedy naughty rabbit who ask for so many wish
Cause god has to do extra work
As long as family and friends are happy and healthy then I’m happy with it as well
>>> Happy New Year to myself and my family and friends as well <<<

While typing this blog
I’m listening two songs
The song makes me a bit emotional
I feel upset but at the same times I’m okay
My mind is empty
Nothing to worry or thinking
But what makes me feel upset? Curious with it
After when to sleep and next morning I’ll be fine
Just the song influence my mind and emotional

Peoples always said “friendship forever”
Do these words really work?
What ingredient that we must put inside in order to get a friendship forever?
Caring, tolerance, respect, sharing, enjoying....anything more?
Sometimes really hard to read people’s mind
Too many obstacles for me to read their mind

Different people different thinking
Some can hide away their problem well and not sharing to others
Some are finding another party to release the unhappy feeling or mood
Some are choosing to eat a lot to cool down their anger or feeling
Really different people different mind and different perspective
Even myself also not really good in handling friendship problem

I don’t love to share to others
When face problem I only hideaway myself and release my feeling to my hand writing diary or my lock myself in the room or empty place for few minutes to cool down myself
sometimes my acting cause others worry about me
I feel sorry to them who are worry about me
But at that moment I just wish to have a silent place n relax my mind

No matter how or what types of the friendship we have either normal friend, best buddy or close friend
The most basic lesson we must learnt is to respect others

Saturday, January 8, 2011

my mood on Saturday

08 Jan 2011, Saturday

almost few weeks i seem like staying in the prison
due to final exam is coming to town
no choice but must face the truth

just now i watched a drama
the speech of the heroin makes me recalled back some incident
last year 2010 Jan 3 was a bad and darkness day of my life
from that incident
it has change my life
i get and learnt a lot knowledge from that day
i should thank to the one who give me such knowledge

but the fact is
sometimes i still not fully left out everything
i still back to the past
referring the past
this is one thing that i don't like myself
but i still a normal and emotional mankind
however, i will ask and pull myself back to the future and current

i believe in one day i can completely step up and ignore the past
but when is the day will comes to me?
I'm wondering and asking as well
the one seem like every enjoy the one's life with the new one
i should wish them
they found their happiness
but in fact
m i really wish them from the true heart or hiding my feeling?
the only person who know the exactly answer just me

i should learn to stop viewing the one's profile and new one's as well
the more i view the more i think and suffering myself
blaming myself reminding myself

sometimes when thing is in front with us
we thought we already appreciating
but in fact how much percent that we are actually putting it?
the amount is still blur
but when thing has gone from our hand
then only we know how much percent we has contribute during the appreciation

i did a big mistake before
and a didn't put enough percentage of appreciation cause i lost everything
but i didn't blame myself or anyone

just reminding myself to work more harder in future